Tuesday, February 28, 2006 11:56 PM
Disheartening with a sigh...
It's been quite sometimes...since I post.
Actually there is one post that I wrote in MS word in my labtop but just lazy to upload into this desktop that I am using to type this very entry. Yah maybe after exams I will post it on for all my faithful readers to read on the blog.
Why disheartening? Furthermore enhancing the word with a sigh... You must be thinking that the content that I will be typing below is really THAT disheartening... YES I would believe, to some it maybe of little significance to them... but to me it really left a very deep impression on the words that that fella used... though that fella stated that my words didn't leave an impression on him... but it was real disheartening to see those words...
It's been a long time since I blogged an entry which is against someone, I do not want to do so because I do not want to hurt anyone's feeling and furthermore don't want to be accused of making a BIG fuzz out of nothing...
But guessed sometimes, blogging is one way to air your unhappiness, I know the law for DEFAMATION thanks to Ms Peter, won't be stating anything or refer to anyone on this particular issue that I want to air out to my readers...
Yah I believe that to all who knows me that well, I am quite a stubborn fella, sometimes what I do not want to do, I won't do but people do change you know acommodation and compromising is one way to solve problems. Though you are not very happy but to make everyone happy, you have to succumb to this kind of decision.
And to those who had worked with me, I distinguished my work and studies very distinctively. When come to doing stuffs for clubs, student council (sec sch), I will be committed to do so until the accomplishment of the job. Because of a word that I live with 'Responsibility', you have to fulfill all of your responsibilities the moment the job is delegated to you.
But the moment the work overlapped with your studies, for example 'EXAMS'
my priority will be my studies. For goodness sake, everyone will make this logical decision as in studies come first before other stuffs. It's not shirking
of responsibilities, is just that everything can push until the end of your examinations but if it's not possible then there's nothing you can do. I am that kind of person who is not prepared to sacrifice my studies with these stuffs, just not worth it.
I still remembered what Jie Ying said to me when I stepped into polytechnic that first few months, she said " you come poly not for CCA but for your studies" I still remembered that, I told her that I have my limits. My limit, everyone, is to not do CCA stuffs during exam period, if possible not even during revision week. That's my limit.
That's has always been my policy for the past one and a half year. Some people out there just don't understand. If you were to put yourself in my shoes on that day...
Friday, you had just finished your paper, went to check the stuffs and the place wasn't open, you can't do anything right since you don't have the key to the place. You did ask about the stuffs a few days ago but no one knows about it, is it not enough to said that you did concern about the stuffs not that you don't even bother to ask.
Saturday, a person message you to do CCA stuffs but monday you have a paper to prepare for, and you didn't even started revision. What will you do? Logical people will apologise that you can't do and start your revision.
Another messaged back stating that as if other people don't have exams like that...then I would like to ask since you know that now is exam period, you still ask people to do this kind of stuffs.
I understand that time is very tight, if there is a time lag of three to four days to my next paper, I would have helped but I am also pressing for time to study... hope you will understand.
I am also stressed, Saturday I talked to another friend of mine, I was crying while I spoke to my friend somemore it's at a public place.
I know that I must keep my promise that I will help my friend but now the fact that when you can't even help yourself, how can you help yourself, I would like to ask. Do you know that I was worrying that I can't finish studying all my stuffs for Monday's Exam?
And it's indeed true, I really didn't finish all my revision. Because after that phone messaging, I am very affected by it and constantly being bothered by it, can't concentrate at all.
The most disheartening fact is that I understand your position but you don't know my position. I need to do well for this semester in hope of pushing my GPA above 3.0, I want to go University very badly, though I know that if you want to go UNI you have to have 3.5 GPA and above. My family just can't afford sending me overseas to study I believe as what I see from my family's financial status. Thus a local uni will be good and cheaper but the competition is very high. Just hope I can make it. That's the reason I am working so hard for the exams.
There's nothing I can do now but I promised I will accomplish my responsibilities after my last paper no matter how unhappy are all of you with me now.
Like to share with all my readers this photo, it's composure and background is simply fabulous!
Group display of affection. Hey I haven't introduce the girls....
Yoz Yoz Check It OUT!!! The Guys R in TOWN!!!
Aren't they cute? Or just ACTing CUTE?! haha Joking!!! OF cos they are!!!
Stupid Wanwei shooting me! 
Yups...Yesterday went sentosa with this whole load of gurls, waiting for the other guys who do not know where they are and decided to take a picture before proceeding on to play our game of Frisbee.